e-mail

I know I read this e-mail far too late. Yet it still not that late. Sorry think I'm a bit clueless to find the exact word to describe my feelings now.

I just read this e-mail from my friend YShin, sent on 5 Jul 2005:

"za bo... really miss u all frens ler...guess y i suddenly like tat? actually u nearly (really is nearly) cannot c me anymore liao ler. yesterday morning i go swimming then nearly drown at 1.8m there, i only 1.58m, u can imagine how panic i m. then i alone, nobody surrounding oso, straggle & straggle, tink i'll die v soon liao la, swallow alot water, nose choking oso...now i know how ppl feel when they are drown, panic until no voice come out altot like to scream help... then heng i m at lane 3, altot my hand cannot swim as usual but i try to force my legs to push me forward to lane 1 then i finally can touch the wall. really v scat, v v scat but i pretend like nothing cos if let ppl c my pale face then too lose face liao... ha... then the thing tat make me angry most is when i touch the wall and rest, i saw 2 saving persons chatting in front of me, ard 3m far away from me... THEY ARE BLIND. that's all i can say abt tat 2 fuckers... then after this experience, i keep tinking tat will u ppl sad 4 me if i really die? will my frens sad or cry 4 me? of course da pang will la, if not i'll come visit him everynight and scat him until he cry... but i tink for u all, sad abt 1 week then say some sorry phrase then will forget me alr la... those who working keep on working, those who studying keep on studying, those who dating with bf oso wont stop dating, earth still rotating, sun still rising, the 2 fuckers still chit-chatting... but i wont blame u all la, blame liao oso cannot give me back my life. but i'll become ghost and visit u when u r sleeping, eating, day dreaming... ha...ok la, just wan to tell u tis incident only, take care... :)"

I guess I almost lose another friend by this way. The water. Something similar several years back when PSze drown. What if something bad really happen to your friend around you? Will you get notify? Will someone tell you? How long will it take for the news to reach you? Of course la if that is the case he/she won't be e-mailing you telling the incident that he/she has went through. But I guess some people you loved would never get notify? The world is so small, yet so big. Darn I don't know what the hell i'm talking about now. Just leave me alone.